A message for my self, or maybe for all the people who is struggling with their life

A private note to and from youth travelers who's travel this life.

All People might say that my life is so wonderful or always happy or something else. Well no doubt, IT IS!! My life is soooo damn wonderful!

But..
Back to my past, I feel jealous with other people's life as well. When I saw my friends is already go to foreign country for holiday and I only pumpkin girl who's never go out from this country. When other people have a chance to school and live in other country and I'm only have a 1week holiday. When other people have a better job rather than me. Hmm that was all the past. And after I change my perception and grateful with this life, I feel so much fine. And I realised that my life is f*ckin awesome!

Thank you if you feeling envy with me right now, but you don't need to. Because you can make your life better if you always be positive and thankful :).

And beside of that, I'm back to be a "galau" person... Another quarter life crisis lol.

A month ago I decided to move to Bali. After I come back from traveling 2months. Come back to my routine, I'm feeling lost, again.. Post excitement finding my self in other countries, and I come back again still feeling I don't know what to do in here. All my life is stuck in the small city, with usually job like I did these past 4years, I feel bored and like stuck in the same corner..

And then I decided to move to Bali. After struggling with my self again, thinking about my future outside there. How I live, how can I eat, how I pay my bills.. and yes I made a decision, I have to out from my comfort zone again.

I have my savings in my bank account even that's not a lot, I need to go to Australia for working and holiday, but also I can not leave my parent because they we're now alone, and they're getting old.. I have a lot of debt for them, they rise me until now, even I pay my bills by my self, even they not pay may traveling expenses. But yeah this last 5years I lived with them, I don't need to worry about rent bill and food. Because my parents business is not doing well these day. I need to preparing my self to be independent and take care of them in the future. I realise that I shouldn't use all of my money only for travel these day, eventually I already prepared it from a long time ago.

It's seems like always happy outside, but yeah of course because we're human, we're always have worries about tomorrow.

But then, after that all happen. Finally I'm here in Bali. Driving my motorbike from Ponorogo to Bali 16hours with my backpack. Looking something in new place. Finding my self. What can I do, what should I do and what I must to do in here.

Lucky I have relative here, they allowed me to stay at their place for a while bcz rent cost in Bali is expensive, especially for unemployment like me.
And I got a job in the hostel. I really want to learn and add my experience working in hospitality or cafe as bartender. This is the firat experience ever. If I want I can working in the hotel with higher salary, but well as a backpacker, our mind and soul choose hostel rather than hotel lol. I will build my own hostel, don't know when and how. But I will, that was my biggest dream. And lucky, the place I work right now, even I'm the only non local people, the other staff and my boss is very very very kind to me.
They teach me a lot of kind of good things that I haven't done before. I learn about culture, new skills, improvement with english, meet a new people eveeeryday from around the world without care about what their religion, age, status.
My working hours is 8h/day, 1day off/week. The rest of it I can explore Bali! Yes, something will happen when you come out from your comfort zone. You don't need to be rich to travel well. And the best things is always grateful wherever you are. There's aaaa looooot of things you won't get with money! Don't chase money, chase your dreams! Even you don't have enough money for travel, keep it going!

My salary maybe not bigger as yours, but I'm enjoy it! I don't need new clothes every year, I don't need a new phone, I don't need to go to fancy restaurant, I can watch movie download from internet. That's okay, at least I can eat everyday that was enough.

Maybe after this I will go somewhere and doing something unpredictable again. Who knows.. cz I have a dream since I'm young before I'm 30 I will explore the world.. Not only travel about the destination but travel this life. After 30? I don't know maybe I end up became a business woman, or unemployed. I dont know.. but I believe, you only live once, you don't know when you will die, just enjoy your time since you can. Jesus have a plan for me.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own..
Matthew 6:34

And I think other people, mostly my parents will worry about me about my "partner in life" lmao. I don't know who you are and I don't where you are. I will enjoying my life with or without you..

Thank you for my parents and my whole family, friends, and all the people I've meet in this world even I don't know who you are and even we met only one time and I don't know your name lmao. And Jesus Christ! You guys make my life sooo colorful.

This message from me right now and also whoever you are who read this post
, from 26yo single girl who seeking what life means. For the future me. You are awesome! You have a great things in your youth!

and still, looking forward for Australia!

Regards!

You Only Live Once